Saiyonan Transmissions: The Rigor Keeps You Deep in Survival.
- Nuna Ma’Khai
- Jun 2
- 6 min read
An intuitive reading on releasing the rigor and honoring your divine feminine cycles and rhythms.
Card pulled: Death
To elaborate: Six of pentacles, Five of wands, The Moon, two of cups reversed, Page of wands
Directly underneath: King of Swords, seven of wands reversed, The Empress, Knight of swords, ten of pentacles
Additional cards: Ten of wands reversed, King of Pentacles, Temperance, King of Cups
The cycles and rhythms of our divine feminine energy are calling us back to the altars of our sacred spaces. We were infiltrated by the demands of production—consuming for the sake of consumption—by those starved for buoyant colors and constant movement. We have aggressively clawed away the natural essence of our being to meet unrealistic demands for a world desperate to find purpose and meaning in the mundane. We traded our deep and intimate relationships with our loved ones and the Divine to produce for a world that demanded performance and replication. Survival meant we had to sacrifice the magic of our being by discarding our art—our spirituality—to ensure we accumulated just enough resources for comfort. Just enough comfort to keep us breathing, yet slightly suffocating in the high altitudes of worldly ideologies and sensible logic.
We are grieving and recovering from the loss and “failures” of deep and intimate relationships; they are crumbling and crashing within their own concrete despite the amount of love, inner-standing, and patience we’ve shown throughout those bonds. Our divine masculine became machines producing the imitation of love out of a need to withstand the demands of these relationships and ego-driven gains. What started out as love and desire for connection became business models and logistics. Our divine masculine needed to compete for relevance; we started producing through trial and error to balance survival and spiritual fulfillment. Fulfillment meant approval from partners and others we collaborated with. If we failed, we were nothing. We gave of ourselves like rats to the scientist—experimenting with our own hearts for the sake of approval. We became the rats and scientists in glass-clear cages performing for approval and entertainment. For safety. Illusion kept us safe and surviving in these relationships. They are splitting and dissolving like paper soaked in sink water. So, we mourn. We know that they too must end or transform.
We’re called to ask where we go against what is natural for our cycles and rhythms. When in the shadow, the King of Swords is drunk in rigor. It demands results and proof in a rigorously masculine and irrefutable way. Whether or not those results and proof betray our natural cycles, our emotional and spiritual bodies is irrelevant. It is less concerned about the overall truth—but rather concerns itself with the truth that is more dominant. Morality, compassion, grace, and gratitude are subjective virtues that do not benefit what is real in a sense of objective truth. Intuition is refutable and incomplete; it is logic and rigor that reign supreme. It’s our divine masculine side that says we must survive. And through that survival, we must discard any signs of weakness and submission. Feelings are pointless and worthy only of suppression. We must defy grace; for what is grace if not a weakness rooted in passivity and needless compassion? “We are wolves—the ones born of a heavy coldness, the ones born of brick and stone,” it affirms. “If we are to survive this world, we must carve or be carved. Beat or be beaten. Rule or be ruled. Devour or be devoured.”
There is wisdom in the Moon and grace in the Empress. The Empress, an aspect of our divine feminine, honors the life and death of all things. Its rituals and rhythms are a direct reflection of our connection to the cosmos. It represents our divine feminine embodiment of grace, gratitude, and implementation of divine inner-standing and order. It sees clearly that production, performance, subjective perception, and people-pleasing pulls us from the waves and rhythms of divine truth. It knows that the King of Swords’s logic was once beneficial to the greater good. But that greater good placed stones upon his heart. It was barricaded in the hollowness of worldly demands. The King of Swords was not born of the cold, but of the warm waters of the divine feminine—born beauty and beast, flesh and soul. It now seeks to return to that wholeness because, as the old self shifts and sheds, so does the old life find itself dry and ready to wither. Trauma has no right to exist where there is peace and balance. The Empress shows the King of Swords, through graceful application, how to honor itself. It chooses ritual over resistance, devotion over doubt, and grace over greed. The world grew greedy when the King of Swords produced for its benefit. It gave without end.
The Moon reveals what we desire and where we fool ourselves. It reveals our fears, needs, sensitivities, emotional triggers, and maternal wounds. How has the upkeep of my home been? Have I conversed with the silence? What caused me to drifted away from home? What makes me feel unsafe? Why do I concern myself only with the needs of others? Am I repeating generational trauma patterns? How can I honor my feelings today? What truth about myself wants to reveal itself right now? Sit with it. Journal. Ask the these questions. “There is oxygen in the water,” Divine says.
You are not wired to give without rest, to honor logic over intuition. Your intuition leads you to right reasoning, and your divine feminine knows this without flaw or doubt. You are not only in this world for survival, despite you being wired for it. You were born as a being with abilities that no other being on this planet is capable of. That is magic in itself.
The Divine asks you to soothe by releasing the rigor. Slow down and float. Bury your burdens in the earth and allow your frustrations and illusions to reveal themselves. You have proven your strength through mental rigor and forge. You are now asked to return to your natural cycles and rhythms. Returning to your natural state helps you to remember your origin. Your origin is who you are outside of all conditioning, trauma, demands, wars, and pressures of this world. It is who you are outside of the ideologies and expectations of others. Returning to yourself means being aware that you have strayed from home—being aware that you are sailing unfamiliar seas. It takes presence and patience to return to emotional stability. You are gently reminded that water provides stability if you choose not to resist the things you must surrender to. Your logic must always be rooted in divine knowing. To enhance that divine knowing, speak to the air. Burn incense. Fan yourself with fans made of leaves. Walk with feathered bracelets on your dominant or writing hand. Let your divine feminine show you ritual.
Temperance teaches you that sobriety increases your awareness. Silence enhances your hearing. Breathing amplifies the grounding. Listening lightens the water. You don’t need to hold an ocean in your arms or a globe on your head. In fact, you have the choice to release or hoard all that anchors you to suffering. The King of Pentacles inner-stands that tending to the natural through ceremony and consistent devotion helps to increase abundance. It represents the divine masculine that plants according to season. For this is divine feminine rhythm honored in divine masculine application. It takes several seasons to master a craft, to learn the cycles and patterns of nature. It sometimes takes intuitive feeling, as not everything is apparent or material.
Seeds must grow and morph into fruits of plenty. Only then can we enjoy the sweet and savory of our devotions and commitments.
The King of Cups inner-stands that we don’t fear what we feel—but rather, we fear the rejection that comes from sharing those feelings. Honor them by listening and releasing what is suppressed. The world demanded the suppression of your truest feelings and emotions. You used logic as a way of survival. You coped and escaped. You are being shown that you are supported. It’s your time to receive the emotional stability and anchoring you may need now.
The Page of Wands above the Ten of Pentacles reminds the King of Swords that virtue, spiritual philosophy, and adventure are directly linked to legacy and wealth. Who are you outside of what you believe about the world and programmed beliefs? How can you embrace this spiritual aspect of yourself? Open yourself to spiritual endeavors and allow your perspectives to shift. Your wealth is not tied to how much you can replicate, imitate, or produce through rigor. It is tied to your strategy—your willingness to pivot when needed, explore when called, and your ability to shift according to divine virtue. Your legacy and wealth—in this age—is you becoming the embodiment of peace, stability, emotional maturity, reverence, and divine care. Your divine feminine is showing you the way home. What must change is your attitude towards ritual and devotion. Sit in the presence of Spirit, and it will teach you to embody your best.
Honor this time of shedding. Give to yourself through ritual and release. You may not know everything, but if you allow grace, gratitude, softness, and surrender to be your guides, you’ll be present before the faces of balance and harmony at the perfect moment.
Thank you for sharing this space with me. It is an honor to serve you through the Divine.
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